Its the beginning of the year and again I look at resolutions and how I am going to hit the ground running and be all that I can be, I sound like a military commercial but it is this way every year.
I make the same ones every year, I want to lose weight, get healthy, save money, travel...
And every year they go to the wayside as the real world intrudes and I lose my momentum and/or mindset and each year all of those things seem to gather more around them then the year before.
This year I am not going to make myself promises that I can beat myself up over, nothing that I can fail at, this year I am going to try, every day, to be a better person.
I am also going to work toward me improvement, not weight loss, not financial success, I just want to feel good about me again. Mentally I want to know that I am lovable. Yes I know that people that read this will exclaim that I am lovable, but in the end the person that has to say it and believe it is me.
I have an amazing support system, I think that is because I am also supportive of them, I am afraid though if I ever let them see inside, if I say the things I really feel will they still support me, will they still love me?
Guess what? It's not about them, its about me, I am the one that needs to love me, when that happens then I will never have to worry about others loving me again, that comes with me doing it.
Today I am going to work on some steps, and make a list of things I can accomplish if I put my mind to it.
Stay tuned for my journey!
You sure do have a lot of friends who love and respect you, us among them. But you are right, you have to do your best to love and accept yourself as well. We will love you either way, of course. I know all of us have self doubts and insecurities too. I guess it comes with being a thinking person.
ReplyDeleteMucho hugs and kisses, Sweetie!